Monday, July 30, 2007

I´m eating the last piece of yesterday´s cake
It does feeds me even though, it has no taste
And despite the harm it makes
I´m eating the rest of yesterday´s cake
For some reason
You are no end I´m over
At some point I think we´re laying closer
And I breath the same air as you
Though you are not so far the life I look for
Not so far the love I´m in love for
But a love that is hidden behind myself maybe
A joy that has become anguish lately
I better say what you better accept
Must I accept that myself
You are just a good memory
Because you are no future
And its not of my nature
To make it longer
But In a way
Not that it really makes me stronger
Some things do need to have a break
I still can´t help but
Keep a piece of yesterday´s cake



Kate Polladsky

Sunday, July 22, 2007

I´m letting the night awake

Sove… Ville du å sove med meg?

A real dream that is not dream if it is real

Som du sier drøm søt og det bli livet

I was just dying to be better

Jeg var alltid bedre vet jeg

You were supposed to be here

Du er på andre steder

And it ends with no ending

Du bare må gå videre

Og jeg må gå i knas

Says you happy love

Si god natt til meg

Kate Polladsky

Thursday, July 19, 2007


Mas por quê? E de quem é a culpa?

Há certos momentos em que não há conforto e nem culpados.

Não há razão, nenhuma sequer.

Há somente a dor infinita e incredulidade. O pesadelo que deus queira seja apenas pesadelo.

Não sei se acredito em coisas do tipo “foi deus que quis assim”. Eu não sei o que deus quer, talvez ele queira o que todos queremos, paz. Seja lá o que paz signifique hoje em dia. Mas se está com deus, está em paz. Acho que é somente em que acredito.

Talvez seja em algum ponto da vida que somente a morte nos una. A dor une. A saudade une. Numa realidade que nos separa.

Eu também não sei se algo muda. Tantas tragédias e perdas, no que mudamos? Amamos mais? Cuidamos mais?

Este blog está de luto pelas vítimas do acidente aéreo da TAM. Passageiros, famílias, amigos e desconhecidos.

Aos que foram, aos que ficaram e aos que renasceram.

Todo o lamento e respeito.

Repensar a vida... E não a morte da existência.

Kate Polladsky

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Verdade seja dita, eu ainda.

Com tudo o que aconteceu,

Apesar de, e mesmo assim...

Eu ainda.

Porque por muitas razões eu...

E por outras sinceramente...

Eu só queria, e sonho com isso todo dia

Não sei se tenho esperança de.

Mas espero que

Embora esteja tudo perdido e acabado

É um inferno sem

Mas se eu pudesse

Novamente

Por mais que...

Não sei, mas acho que sim

Simplesmente porque

Eu

Ainda.

Kate Polladsky

Friday, July 13, 2007

Árvore Genealógica

Tenho muitos ao meu redor
Sequer metade está realmente lá
Perto e presente.
Na chuva do cotidiano
No amparo aos que resfriam
Estão lá aqueles sempre presentes e parasitários
Aos fortes e contentes
Aos de saúde e de riqueza
Aos que de fato, fazem.
Às pontes em meio aos problemas
No dia em que os bons se forem, irão os únicos
E a solidão será o piso quase materno do resto
que sobrevive
Tenho medo de ir, mas tenho medo de ir primeiro
Do que os que para mim são os primeiros na minha vida
A vida ensina em atraso à perda
E a perda quando deveras perda, lhe tira a ti também.
No fim do arco-íris há os que nos esperam
Ao longo do arco-íris há poucos que nos acompanham
Eu sinto pena dos que são embalagem e nada envolvem
Dos que protagonizam, dos que são quantitativos apenas.
Dos que estãos sempre doentes para não ajudar
Mas que se curam de imediato para serem ajudados
Traço uma linha que dela não passam muitos dos que
ocupam espaço nas fotografias
Na minha vivência eu vivo e morro por uns
Não por outros, que são os muitos ao meu redor
Os contáveis parasitas com os quais não se conta.
Vai se reduzindo a quase nenhum de nós a felicidade
Somos poucos e confiáveis
Somos únicos e somos o todo
A despeitos dos que apenas fazem parte.


K. Polladsky

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

I miss home.
When I’m outside, watching the rain I miss home.
I came here running from myself
And I found myself alone here
That happens to anyone.
Regret.
The deaf who goes for a blind dream and gets broken.
That happened to me.
I didn´t know that I could stand all
When I thought I couldn´t
So I left. And now, I really can´t stand a thing by myself
Not even the sick routine of me.
Not even my memories, that turn into misery the brave feeling
I carried all along the way til darkness.
I just miss home.
And the sensation of being held
The illusion of falling. Illusions never happen.
But today´s nightmare happens
I didn´t know home…
Until I miss it.


Kate Polladsky

Saturday, July 07, 2007

According to scientific studies, the first letter of your first name
reveals your sexual identity... What do you think?


-A-
You are not particularly romantic, but you are interested in action.
You mean business. With you, what you see is what you get. You have
no patience for flirting and can't be bothered with someone who is
trying to be coy, cute, demure, and subtly enticing. You are an up
front person. When it comes to sex, it's action that counts not
obscure hints. Your mate's physical attractiveness is important to
you. You find the chase and challenge of the "hunt" invigorating.
You are passionate and sexual as well as being much more adventurous
than you appear; however, you do not go around advertising these
qualities. Your physical needs are your primary concern.!


-B-
You give off vibes of lazy sensuality. You enjoy being romanced,
wined, and dined. You are very happy to receive gifts as an
expression of the affection of your lover. You want to be pampered
and know how to pamper your mate. You are private in your
expression of endearments and particularly when it comes to
lovemaking. You will hold off until everything meets with your
approval. You can control your appetite and abstain from sex if need
be. You require new sensations and experiences. You are willing to
experiment.


-C-
You are a very social individual, and it is important to you to have
a relationship. You require closeness and togetherness. You must be
able to talk to your sex partner before, during, and after. You want
the object of your affection to be socially acceptable and good
looking. You see your lover as a friend and companion. You are very
sexual and sens! ual, needing someone to appreciate and almost worship
you. When th is cannot be achieved, you have the ability to go for
long periods without sexual activity. You are an expert at
controlling your desires and doing without.


-D-
Once you get it into your head that you want someone, you move full
steam ahead in pursuit. You do not give up your quest easily. You
are nurturing and caring. If someone has a problem, this turns you
on. You are highly sexual, passionate, loyal, and intense in your
involvement, sometimes possessive and jealous. Sex to you is a
pleasure to be enjoyed. You are stimulated by the eccentric and
unusual, having a free and open.


-E-
Your greatest need is to talk. If your date is not a good listener,
you have trouble relating. A person must be intellectually
stimulating or you are not interested sexually. You need a friend
for a lover and a companion for a bedmate. You hate disharmony and
disruption, but you do enjoy a good argument once in a wh! ile it
seems to stir things up. You flirt a lot, for the challenge is more
important than the sexual act for you, but once you give your heart
away, you are uncompromisingly loyal. When you don't have a good
lover to fall asleep with, you will fall asleep with a good book.
(Sometimes, in fact, you prefer a good book.)


-F-
You are idealistic and romantic, putting your lover on a pedestal.
You look for the very best mate you can find. You are a flirt, yet
once committed, you are very loyal. You are sensuous, sexual, and
privately passionate. Publicly, you can be showy, extravagant, and
gallant. You are born romantic. Dramatic love scenes are your
favorite fantasy pastime. You can be a very generous lover.


-G-
You are fastidious, seeking perfection within yourself and your
lover. You respond to a lover who is your intellectual equal or
superior, and one who can enhance your status. You are sensuous! and
know how to reach the peak of erotic stimulation, because you work
at it meticulously.. You can be extremely active sexually that is,
when you find the time. Your duties and responsibilities take
precedence over everything else. You may have difficulty getting

emotionally close to a lover, but no trouble getting close sexually.

-H-
You seek a mate who can enhance your reputation and earning ability.
You will be very generous to your lover once you have attained a
commitment. Your gifts are actually an investment in your partner.
Before the commitment, though, you tend to be frugal in your
spending and dating habits and equally cautious in your sexual
involvement. You are a sensual and patient lover.


-I-
You have a great need to be loved, appreciated... Even worshipped.
You enjoy luxury, sensuality, and pleasures of the flesh. You look
for lovers who know what they are doing. You are not interested in
an amateur, unless that amateur wants a tutor. You are f! ussy and
exacting about having your desires satisfied. You are willing to
experiment and try new modes of sexual expression. You bore easily
and thus require sexual adventure and change. You are more sensual
than sexual, but you are sometimes downright lustful.


-J-
You can be very romantic, attached to the glamour of love. Having a
partner is of paramount importance to you. You are free in your
expression of love and are willing to take chances, try new sexual
experiences and partners, provided it's all in good taste. Brains
turn you on. You must feel that your partner is intellectually
stimulating, otherwise you will find it difficult to sustain the
relationship. You require loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to
know that you're being appreciated.


-K-
You are totally sexually marvelous!


-L-
You are very romantic, idealistic, and somehow you believe that to
love means! to suffer. You wind up serving your mate or attracting
people who have unusual troubles. You see yourself as your lover's
savior. You are sincere, passionate, lustful, and dreamy. You can't
help falling in love. You fantasize and get turned on by movies and
magazines. You do not tell others of this secret life, nor of your
sexual fantasies.


-M-
You are emotional and intense. When involved in a relationship, you
throw your entire being into it. Nothing stops you; there are no
holds barred. You are all consuming and crave someone who is equally
passionate and intense. You believe in total sexual freedom. You are
willing to try anything and everything. Your supply of sexual energy
is inexhaustible. You also enjoy mothering your mate.


-N-
You are crap in bed.


-O-
You are very interested in sexual activities yet secretive and shy
about your desires. You can re-channel much of your sexual energy
into making money and/or seeking power. You can easily have! extended
periods of celibacy. You are a passionate, compassionate, sexual
lover, requiring the same qualities from your mate. Sex is serious
business; thus you demand intensity diversity, and are willing to
try anything or anyone. Sometimes your passions turn to
possessiveness, which must be kept in check.


-P-
You are very conscious of social proprieties. You wouldn't think of
doing anything that might harm your image or reputation. Appearances
count, therefore, you require a good-looking partner. You also
require an intelligent partner. Oddly enough, you may view your
partner as your enemy; a good fight stimulates those sex vibes You
are free of sexual hang-ups. You are willing to experiment and try
new ways of doing things. You are very social and sensual; you enjoy
flirting and need a good deal of physical gratification.


-Q-
You require constant activity and stimulation. You have tremendous !
physical energy. It is not easy for a partner to keep up with you,
sexually or otherwise. You are an enthusiastic lover and tend to be
attracted to people of other ethnic groups. You need romance, hearts
and flowers, and lots of conversation to turn you on and keep you
going.


-R-
You are a no-nonsense, action-oriented individual. You need someone
who can keep pace with you and who is your intellectual equal the
smarter the better. You are turned on more quickly by a great mind
than by a great body. However, physical attractiveness is very
important to you. You have to be proud of your partner. You are
privately very sexy, but you do not bed, you are willing to serve as
teacher. Sex is important; you can be a very demanding playmate.


-S-
You are secretive, self-contained, and shy. You are very sexy,
sensual, and passionate, but you do not let on to this. Only in
intimate privacy will this part of your nature reveal itself. When
it gets down to the nitty-grit! ty, you are an expert. You know all
the little tricks of the trade, can play any role or any game, and
take your love life very seriously. You don't fool around. You have
the patience to wait for the right person to come along.


-T-
You are very sensitive, private, and sexually passive; you like a
partner who takes the lead. Music, soft lights and romantic thoughts
turn you on. You fantasize, but do not tend to fall in and out of
love easily. When in love, you are romantic, idealistic, mushy, and
extremely intense. You enjoy having your senses and your feelings
stimulated, titillated, and teased. You are a great flirt. You can
make your relationships fit your dreams, oftentimes all in your own
head


-U-
You are enthusiastic and idealistic when in love. When not in love,
you are in love with love, always looking for someone to adore. You
see romance as a challenge. You are a roamer and need adventu! re,
excitement, and freedom. You deal in potential relationships. You
enjoy giving gifts and enjoy seeing your mate looking good. Your sex
drive is strong and you desire instant gratification. You are
willing to put your partner's pleasures above your own.


-V-
You are individualistic, and you need freedom, space, and
excitement. You wait until you know someone well before committing
yourself. Swing someone means psyching him out. You feel a need to
get into his head to see what makes him tick. You are attracted to
eccentric types. Often there is an age difference between you and
your lover. You respond to danger, thrills, and suspense. The gay
scene turns you on, even though you yourself may not be a
participant.


-W-
You are very proud, determined, and you refuse to take no for an
answer when pursuing love. Your ego is at stake. You are romantic,
idealistic, and often in love with love itself, not seeing your
partner as he or she really is. You feel deeply ! and throw all of
yourself into your relationships. Nothing is too good for your
lover. You enjoy playing love games.


-X-
You need constant stimulation because you bore quickly. You can
handle more than one relationship at a time with ease. You can't
shut off your mind. You talk while you make love. You can have the
greatest love affairs, all by yourself, in your own head.


-Y-
You are sexual, sensual, and very independent. If you can't have it
your way, you will forgo the whole thing. You want to control your
relationships, which doesn't always work out too well. You respond
to physical stimulation, enjoy necking and spending hours just
touching, feeling and exploring. However, if you can spend your time
making money, you will give up the pleasures of the flesh for the
moment. You need to prove to yourself and your partner what a great
lover you are. You want feedback on your performance. You are! an
open, stimulating, romantic bedmate.


-Z-
For you, it is business before pleasure. If you are in any way
bothered by career, business, or money concerns, you find it very
hard to relax and get into the mood. You can be romantically
idealistic to a fault and are capable of much sensuality. But you
never lose control of your emotions. You are very careful and
cautious before you give your heart away and your body, for that
matter. Once you make the commitment, though, you stick like glue.

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

And...
I treated you as a priority
While you treated me as an option
I stopped believing
More than that
I stopped trusting
And less I stopped waiting
And wondering
About the things
I could do to surprise you
And a better way to meet you
I just had never noticed
I might be special
But not important
Not enough or a little
So much that it came
to an end
In time to pretend
That´ll be a choice to the next.


You are a good memory, because you are no future.


Kate Polladsky




Monday, July 02, 2007

Pra quê saudade?
Para lembrar: O calendário.
Para doer?
Pára.
Para vontade
Pra falar a verdade...
Valeu, saudade.
De inteiro à metade
De nós, de deus
De quem fizera parte
Partiu, partiu-se.
Por que você?
Saudade...


Kate Polladsky