Turn Chaos Into Art

TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH, IT BOTHERS ME.
THAT YOU CREATED A HARD WAY TO LOVE ME
AND AN EASY WAY TO LOSE ME.
IT BOTHERS ME THAT YOU HAVEN´T REALISED THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN WHAT YOU THINK IT´S RIGHT AND WHAT I THINK IT´S WRONG.
AND IT BOTHERS ME BECAUSE I RESPECT MYSELF, YOU DON´T.
EVEN WHEN I LIKE YOUR KINDNESS, AND YOUR INTRIGUING LOOKS
I WONDER IF I DONE SOMETHING TO WIN IT, AND IF IT MEANS IT´S GOOD.
TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH, ONE OF US HAS BEEN LYING TO ITSELF
IN A MILLION T POINTS THAT TOGETHER MAY DRAW A WHOLE ENDING.
I NO LONGER FEEL SO GIVEN. I MAY BE THIS NUMB PERSON, FEELING NOTHING AT ALL.
I´M PERHAPS JUST A THINKER. THINKING TOO MUCH OF EVERYTHING.
WILLING TO THINK LESS AND LESS OF YOU.
TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH, I´M NOT TRULLY A TELLER
I´D RATHER JUST DO.
BUT SOMETHING´S KEEPING ME FROM MOVING
ALTHOUGH I´M ACTING LIKE A FOOL.
IT BOTHERS ME AND STILL…
I´M TRYING TO FIX WHAT CANNOT BE BETTER
BETTER IF I DIDN´T BOTHER
I´M WAITING FOR WHATEVER.

KP